The Dream:
I was outside a chain link fence within a
concrete building. At first, I could not see inside, but at the far end,
I noticed my former wife as she appeared some forty years ago, unaware
of my presence, very busy. I didn't wish to startle her, knowing how
prone she is to such. "Hello?" I called, continuing a little louder each
time, never able to get her attention. Then, I walked back to the long
section of the fence, still calling, still unheard. Someone lifted a
small toddler, a girl and put her in my arms. I held the little girl, as
I wept and talked to her. I woke in pain.
Reflection:
Who
knows what dreams mean? Perhaps nothing the majority of the time. But I
couldn't help reflecting what a picture this was of my marriage. satan
is able sometimes to put fences between us. This was true of my 18 year
marriage. he built a wall between my former wife and me and fooled me
into treating symptoms rather than the difficulties. It was poor
communication-and endictment on ME, as I am a professional communicator.
I tried to fix what she SAID was the problem, rather than the real
issue.
I believe the little girl represents the "daddy" spirit in me that was in my Dad and is evident in my Son.
She also represents the little girl in my former wife I so despirately wished to reach, but was unable to.
I have been guilty of willingly and at times unwittingly allowing the Enemy to put up fences and even walls between
myself and those I love.
The song I learned as a child is so simple, yet true:
The devil is a sly old fox
If I could catch him, I'd put him in a box,
Lock that box and throw away the key,
For all those tricks he's played on me.
Glad I got converted (x3)
And trusting in the Lord!
